ahh wells.
i think i'm gonna change skin.
i'm getting tired of this.
hah X)
butBUTbut .
i'm gonna keep the MIDI!
i LOVE it.
hahs.
reminds me of my sad past.
BUT still.
i LOVE it.
i'm a sadist.
heh (:

oh boy.
we're getting our report books tomorrow.
sighs. hope i don't fail too much.
gulps*
joey's waiting o see my NEW HAIRCUT tomorrow.
oh my damn bloody hell.
they'll laugh their head off if they see me.
GUARANTEED.
i must work hard for next year!! hahs X)
and get into erm. 3e1?
hees (:
oh and btw.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN
hahs (:
today's my luoling jie's and william kor's birthday!
happy birthday (:

aiites.
stayed at home the whole of today.
except for dinner.
ate out.
sighs. how sad.
mustaqim and ivy broke up.
PLEASE do not.
mention mustaqim infront of ivy anymore ok.
she'll either cry or ignore you.
i feel so.
sad when i see her cry for mustaqim.
sighs. life's like this.
full of unfairness.
and it's like.
everyone's either crying cos of relationships.
or friendship problems.
sighs. cherie's one.
ivy's another.
sometimes i just wish this world weren't full of..
misery and pain.
you know what i mean.
sighs. like. the difference bewteen rich and poor people.
some spoilt brats in rich countries get to eat shark's fin and abalone and they still complain.
whereas children in iraq or whatever have to starve.
how unfair is that.
sighs.

cut my fringe today again.
yeaps.
nicer than the first time i cut my hair.
it was simply horrendous.
hahs. and according to my darling.
he said now i don't smile much.
do i?
wells.. he's the only person who can make me smile la.
hahs. you talk about him infront of me.
my face'll be as red as tomato.
try me (:

OH GOD.
lotsa girls from 2e1 actually CRIED.
i was so shocked to see them cry.
okays. maybe they didn't enter 3e1.
so they CRIED. ugghh.
i walked past the general office and every secondary 2 student was squeezing to the front to see their results.
it was damn bloody crowded.
and i can't believe that JINGHAN actually got into 3e1.
it was just a miracle.
haha. and of cos.
my darling got into 3e1.
he's like so damn bloody clever.
ahahs.
oh boy. i just got a hair cut.
and i hate it.
i'm not gonna go to school on monday.
okay. i will go. ahahs. for my report book.
oh yea. it's holiday. sighs.
i'm bored. my parents won't allow me to go anywhere.
like what de hell.
nvms (:
i shall stay at home and create havoc. ahahs.
so they will let me out cos i'm TOO troublesome.
lalalas (:
yeah like real. they won't be like.
so stupid la.
i HAVE got to improve my english.
shan't use words like la. or whatever.
singlish.
i'm gonna prepare my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.
ahahs. and it's gonna be a LONGLONG list.
my attitude sucks.
everything of me just sucks (:

sighs. benedict and yeeping's gonna be in the normal academic stream next year.
gonna miss them though.
): aww. shucks.
both are my good friends.
ahh nvm bout that.
aaaaaaaahhh! i miss Elfy.
miss those days when we're like talking everynight.
ahas.
miss those days when i talked to mustaqim too.
ahahs. sighs.
i'll just let bygones be bygones.
we can't really run away from reality can we?
sighs. nvm.
i'll get starting on my resolutions.
hahs. as if.

oh my gosh.
i can`t believe it.
i`m SO happy.
i won`t be going acad!
(: oh boy.
uggh. today`s benedict`s birthday and i didn`t.
like buy any present for him?
lols. bleahs. whatever.
uggh. darling`s going to have practice tomorrow.
wonder if i can sneak and pretend to be one of them (:
hahas.
oh wells. still have to complete the blog layout i promised cheekit.
but i still have absolutely NO IDEA what kind of blog i should make.
well yea. i ran out of pictures X)
hahas (:

gaspps!!
i'm like having a MAJOR headache now.
somebody! save me!!!
ahhs. it's like really hurting me.
aaaah.
btw thanks mark. for trying to make me happy.
by telling those erm. jokes.
hahs (:
sorry cheekit. can't make your skin today.
i'm having a headache!!
i don't wanna go back to school tomorrow!!
i don't!! sighss..
nvms (:
i'll try to sneak into their practice and talk more to elfy (:
missed him lots! didn't talk to him for like.
two weeks?
sighs. life sucks.

heyheys! i changed muii layout!
i`m feeling VERY.
really. VERY happy todayy.
bwahahahas (:
i love my darlingg (:
heess.
he`s so darn cute.
went out withh him todayy.
he just won`t accept derhh money forr derhh moviee tickets.
haha`s. actually wantedd to shopp for Benedict`s presentt.
but. as usual.
i`m just too lazy.
andd boy`s presentt aree derhh hardestt to findd.
gahhs. so inn derhh ennd.
didn`t buy andd wennt homee.
bwahahahas (:
i`m feeling so happy today!
lalalas (:
burdd i don`t wanna go school tomorrow!
boredBOREDbored.
burrd at leastt i get to see himm (:
hahas (:
alrites. toodles.
goodnites (:

i`m bored. darn bored.
what in derh world can i do tml.
i`m so bored.
freaking bored.
and i hate exams.
i hate derhh poor results.
and i`m so bored.
i wanna play NETBALL (:
i miss NETBALL ):
sighs.
have to wait till those freaking youngster`s exam to finish.
like wtf.
we always have to give in to YOUNGSTERS.
haha. we ain`t that old anyways (:
boredboredbored. i wanna change layout.
i wanna change my life.
i HATE my life.
except for my darling and my besties (:
haha. boredboredbored. (:

jailhouse rock (:

The warden threw a party in the county jail.
The prison band was there and they began to wail.
The band was jumpin` and the joint began to swing.
You should`ve heard those knocked out jailbirds sing.
Let`s rock, everybody, let`s rock.
Everybody in the whole cell block
Was dancin` to the jailhouse rock.

Spider murphy played the tenor saxophone,
Little joe was blowin` on the slide trombone.
The drummer boy from illinois went crash, boom, bang,
The whole rhythm section was the purple gang.
Let`s rock, everybody, let`s rock.
Everybody in the whole cell block
Was dancin` to the jailhouse rock.

Number forty-seven said to number three:
You`re the cutest jailbird I ever did see.
I sure would be delighted with your company,
Come on and do the jailhouse rock with me.
Let`s rock, everybody, let`s rock.
Everybody in the whole cell block
Was dancin` to the jailhouse rock.

The sad sack was a sittin` on a block of stone
Way over in the corner weepin’ all alone.
The warden said, hey, buddy, don`t you be no square.
If you can`t find a partner use a wooden chair.
Let`s rock, everybody, let`s rock.
Everybody in the whole cell block
Was dancin` to the jailhouse rock.

Shifty henry said to bugs, for heaven`s sake,
No one`s lookin`, now`s our chance to make a break.
Bugsy turned to shifty and he said, nix nix,
I wanna stick around a while and get my kicks.
Let`s rock, everybody, let`s rock.
Everybody in the whole cell block
Was dancin` to the jailhouse rock.

sighs*
got results backk today.
disappointedd.
i criedd.
sighs*
got back maths, i cried.
got back science, i cried.
got back geography, NEARLY cried.
got back history, i cried.
got back literature, i cried.
literature was derrh worse.
i mean. as in.
cried derrh worse.
wad`s worse is.
he wasn`t there forr me.
he was at derhh freakingg hall.
stewwpid.
i should be happy today.
well it`s like.
our `1 month being together?
yeaps.
he gave me an OP wallet.
it was cool.
lurve it ta bitss (:
i`m suppose to be sadd. and happy today.
i feel really awkward.
feeling bothh happy and sadd todayy.
sighss*
i only passed d&t, english and chinese.
guess you can say my languages are pretty strong.
but they ain`t enough to pull up my average.
i dun wanna say goodbye to EXPRESS ):
or rather.
say HELLO to NORMAL ACAD.
freakk. i really don`t.
my darling`s a maths pro.
like. ohmygoddamnyou.
he didn`t complete his maths paper.
andANDand.
he still can get 80/100.
ohmygod.
i`m feeling so upset.
so sick.
so tired.
of everything.
every single thing in my entire life.
except for my darling and my besties.
i`m sucha pathetic moronic BURGER.
i`m like so useless.
so weak academically, physically and mentally.
iiddiott.
freakingg gurlls in myy class.
follow me cry.
how can.
steal my stage lines and act. pathetic burgers.
i could have passed science!
that freaking lousy calculator!
i didn`t realised i brought it in my bag.
but guess wad.
it was needed for that 4 marks question which i didn`t do.
WHICH could have made me pass.
YOU FREAKING CALCULATOR.
I`M GONNA DISPOSE YOU AND YOUR FREAKING COVER.
ass. i`m gonna update more later.
IF i have derrh time.
gonna go for dinner.
toodles pals.
lurve ya darlingg (:

no offence but.
taufik sucks in singing usher`s songs.
christopher is improvingg lots.
DAPHNE KHOO ROCKS. - as usual.
bwahahahas (:
yippe.
made a tagboard today.
i guess i won`t mind if some bitchhes make trouble dere.
cos i don`t really care.
life`s full of other things to care.
my darling for example.
hee`s.
he`s so darn cutee.
he`s sucha pro at bball.
he jumps HIGH too (:
he can even win Wong Yang!
that ass.
godd. he`s legs are really darn.
powderful!
hahas. it`s our 1 month anniversary tml.
hahas. haven`t gotten him a present yet thoughh (:
yahhs but gonna buy it tml.
wadd shuud i buyy?
really don`t know.
nvms (:
will decide tomorrow. ahahas. tag at my board!
tag tag tagg!!
darn my feet hurts.
played bball at summerhill today.
i wore slippers but in derh end i took them OFF.
cos it was difficult to play basketball with SLIPPERS.
in derrh end.
CHUANMIN stepped on my FEET.
judging from his size you can predict that it hurts.
ALOT.
freak. it felt abit like. sprained. ahahas.
played daidee too (:
with yeeping, my darling (: and tiffany.
it was darn fun!
hahas. played this game called cheat too.
damn fun. ahahas.
i`m gonna stop here.
tag at muhh boardd!
lurve ya loadss darling X)
(: hahas.

yawn. it`s 11.o4 now.
my darling`s sleeping.
ahas.
miss him so much.
he`s so adorable.
^^
have no school tomorrow.
i didn`t realise dere wasn`t any school tomorrow until this morning.
how stupid can i get.
dere isn`t really anyplace i can go.
i`m such a loner.
nahh. i don`t care. - as usual.
wad deh hell.
i keep getting signed out of msn!
wad`s happening.
damn you.
everyone`s having fun during deh hols.
and i`m the only one spending deh hols at home.
eat. sleep. drink.
daily routine. cools.
freaking msn service.
cant` sign in cause of some maintenence work.
how can us, users of msn survive without msn.
how many thousands of people are using msn.
and they give us this kind of crap.
wad deh hell.

finally.
darn exams are over.
whew.
should i have my lunch at seoul garden or sakae?
tough decision.
ah nvms.
freaking art.
didnt really do well in it.
ass.
anyhow drew. (:
cool.
hahas.
i dun gif it a damn.
well jus hope that my other subjects are able to pull up my marks.
might blog again tonites.
toodles (:

i wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
i wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
i wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.


ahh wells.
maths was pretty ok today.
paper tw0 was darn difficult.
but i didnt complete paper 1 either. bwahaha.
gosh.
chuan min, alpheaus came to my house today.
used the comp for 2 hours straight.
then Tyfin came.
and used my comp for 2 hours straight too.
but i dun mind (:
haha.
i taught him how to play gunbound.
he`s like so damn cute!
he shoot liaoss arh.
then smilee (: den laugh.
hahas.
he`s a soccer fanatic.
he`s a pro at it too!
ahahas. bleahbleah.
lala.
so bored.
having art and design and technology tml.
wadda freak!
design and tech sucks!
big time.
i hate it.
art. yea wells.
sucks too.
but not as much as d&t's theory exam.
yucks.
bored lah!
tml`s gonna be the last of exams.
and i`m nort feeling the least happy.
like. wadever.
no one`s gonna accompany anywhere tml.
so i`m gonna go home and spent my time sleeping.
nort a bad idea though.
i`ll try that tml (:
toodles guys. (:

oh yawn.
bored.
had history today.
so easy. but didnt do one quoestion.
4 marks loh.
like i care.
haiyah. gonna fail aniways.
just typing another short entry today tho.
went to eat pizzahut with raymond and pamela. so fun siah!
and funny. haha.
we kept making a fool out of ourselves.
^^
but who cares!!!
live your life to the fullest man.
ahahas.
cya guys.

heyheyhey!!
erm. yeaps.
changed layout.
hee.
btw.. i wont be online for a few weeks.
yea. sad.
):
hahas. k juz typing a short entry.
gtg for dinner.
toodles.
miss ya guys loads.
lurve yoo fin!!

yea. i created this poem today. kinda sad tho.
sighs. just felt sad.


she endeavoured. so hard.
to put melancholy behind her.
those heartaches and heartbreaks.

she lost. she tried to revive.
the cheerful and out going girl she was.
but she cant seem to get her cheerfulness back.
she wished. upon the twinkling stars.
to get the person she was back some day.
however, up till now.
she's still hopefully longing for that day.
but how?
will she erase and forget those hurtful scars in her heart?
every time, as she thinks bout that particular scar,
she would cry her heart out.
that, was the scar that changed her life.
that made the person she was fade away.

tears flowed down her face,
as the heart smashed into tiny pieces.
she didnt have a shoulder to cry on.
the old self that she misses,
the cheerful, all smiles attitude,
has ceased to exist as she knew it.

heyheyhey!
seems like my blogs rotting ya..?
ahhas. life's great.
and partially freaking rotting.
ahh. i love Tyfin!! ahh.
hahas.
head over heels with him.
lalala.
rotting coz i'm not able to use my beloved comp for bout.
erm. 1 month..?
OH COMP! I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
MUACK!!
ahhahas.
my mood's pretty 'high' now.
god.
i have now quitted doing layouts.
it's boring..
ahahas.
EOYs coming though.
god. stress stresss.
ahha.
will update later if i haf the time.
ciaos!